life

When did we all grow up? When did we become these people who had separate lives with separate responsibilities? Did it creep up on us one day when we're spread around the world trying to get our niche? Why weren't we better prepared?

Im homesick. Not for a place, but for a time. When driving to Moncton and fries with mayo were fun. When you had longtime friends close for a night of silly games and memories were made around every corner. Where you were looking forward to leaving all the drama and worries of teenage angst behind for the bright future of adulthood.

Then you get there and realize that all the insecurities, all the drama and all the issues you were hoping to leave behind are just compounded by all the insecurities, all the drama and all the issues of adulthood. Add that to the fact one must become self-reliant AND now your support group is spread all around the world.....just equals one big letdown.

  Nostalgia's a bitch.   

Talked to my two favorite brothers the last two nights. Felt great to chat with them and it felt like they'd never left. Never felt so alone as after I hung up the phone though. And never felt so guilty as when I realized that I hoped they were unhappy where they were and would move closer. Nice friend eh?